Is this thing on?
Hello! After months of agonizing on whether or not i should post more frequently on social media, I decided to just brain dump in my own corner of the internet.
I have this fear of being perceived. It's something i'm trying to navigate as a pro wrestler too. Maybe this blog will help with that.
I'm currently on a break due to an injury. Maybe in a month or so i'll be well enough to train again. Healing progress has been great, and i'm feeling more optimistic and confident as the days go by. Recently one of my peers who's also been injured asked me how I deal with being benched & the fear of being forgotten. Admittedly I hadn't really thought about public perception or anything -- again i'm new and relatively unknown -- but the waiting game... It sucks! Keeping busy helps. I've got a new costume in the works, I have some merch coming out soon, too. I can draw again, so I've been celebrating that by constantly doodling. Been studying a lot too; i'll hopefully get my fitness coaching certification in the coming weeks.
To some degree, I'm glad it happened. Sometimes the fear/anxiety i get pre-match felt crippling. Having dealt with what feels like the worst case scenario, I feel like i'll be a little less scared moving forward. The time off from the day job has been nice too.
Anyway yeah. This took me an absurd amount of time to write. Till the next one.